Hurt/Heart..

 

Broken heart,
Isn’t that what you call yourself when you are left all alone by the one’s who promised never to leave,it’s hard to express out how you feel when you can’t even know what you feel.Sometimes you feel empty,lonely,betrayed by all happiness you were promised to
have from the life.You don’t want to got to and hangout with your friends,laugh at the jokes or at least cry and let out your emotions coz you know person whom you laughed with and the shoulder you once cried on is no more hear to see that or make things correct instead they are the reason you are sad.You might feel like your losing the grip of your life and hearing the word love will rip’s your soul apart for the pain that has given.Your phone that always used to get your touches is now merely an
asset that holds the documentation of the wrong person you love.they are days where you have enormous amount of pain in the chest that no amount of ginger juice can’t heal but just remember those happy time spent with that one will make us comfort for sometime and take you to a ride of hell.No matter how many times you get hurt,you accept an unsaid apology and try to forgive them as if they are coming back well some call it stupidity,some call it Love.We often forget that the more we try to forget some we end up remembering them most.when you finally decide to move on in your there are few questions that haunt you “Can i love someone back again”? ,”should i wait for him/her to comeback”, “should i talk to them one last time”. After few months  you start stating sentences like your happy again with out them,you don’t need them to come back to you and have learnt to lead a life happily without them and deny the fact the your sad and broken completely to be happy again and between all these you realize the person who promised to imprint the happiness in your heart has left deep scars on soul that will remain with forever as honor given for the love to the person who once was your world.people around you start suggesting you to move on,tells out that it’s not even that big of deal but you know it’s not them who are having the wounds at every single breathe they take and they are not the facing the consequence just because you loved more than themselves.people often forget that they are not the one who are carrying all those pain in there back and pretending to be all happy.And now all of a sudden all those feelings you didn’t feel you in the start hits you like tsunami and tears apart all the shield that protected you not cry anymore on that topic anymore.After having spent countless hour in your locked sitting on your couch and crying your heart out you realize if that person really loved you and wanted you to be in love they would have went a long way to stay in your life.You know you can’t unlove someone who
meant something much than yourself and it’s even harder to walk away leaving something when that is the only thing you ever wanted.When you see that person there are butterflies in your stomach again,the urge to hug them and feel there moist lips on yous once again,but you realize that is not going to happen ever again and laugh how crazily you were in love them and still a part of you craves them and can do anything it can to get back.but then again you realize how a single person can come into to your life and damage every part of you and makes you not recognize yourself anymore and teach what is like to have some much unexpressed pain in your heart yet have the smile that makes people think how happy we are in person.